My art

I wouldn't say that I am an artist of any sort, but I love things artsy and crafty.  Hands on things keep my mind active and away from dwelling on things un-necessary in my life.  I was recently approached by my darlings cousin to draw up some fashion pictures to get a visual portfolio of her designs and seeing them in this way.  It stirred that passion I had for this work from many years ago and made me realise how much I missed it.  I was excited as I talked to her in great lengths about fabric and the way fabric can be manipulated to fit the body.  Fabric to me is more important than the design of the clothing itself, it can make or break a look and make or break a person.  As a BBW woman I am very conscious of the fabrics that I would not wear on my body, for the fear of revealing too much of what I hate/dislike about my body.  While I can love, I certainly haven't formed a relationship with the BIG me yet.  7 years is a long time to dislike the fat friend within, but in the same sense.  My dressing style hasn't compromised my confidence in any way in the public eye.  So it is with great excitement that I take on this project and give her the full extent of what I have learned and what I know.  I wish her well in this prospect to look outside the box and make the future of her babies a priority in this endeavor.
I have only tonight finished a piece of art that I have been meaning to complete these past 2 years.  I couldn't find the love and they were pushed to bottoms of the box or placed on the shelf with the too hard basket.  But they are finally on the wall (picture coming soon) and I love it just the way it is.  I made a friend with a product called Gesso, I wonder where this stuff has been all my life and where it was when I first started the art piece.  I first started by hand drawing the flax weaves with blue Biro ink, this allowed me to get the right flicks to create the weaved look.  Then I Gessoed the base within the Koru pattern, then re gessoed with tissue paper, which gave me a rough texture (I fell in love at about this point with Gesso) then went to work with the base colour of Aquamarine Acrylic, using the flicking motions also in the acrylic so as to allow the white to show through and to highlight the texture I created.  Then I painted over this with glitter Acrylic which was in a translucent blue and I was done.  My darling thinks I should have outlined it, but I beg to differ.  I didn't want the outline work to over accentuate the paintings in any way.  I want them to be subtle just like me.  Now they are on the wall, I can honestly say that I will be doing more work soon as presents for friends maybe.
The middle frame represents me with the under curve of the koru on my frame, being that of my Twin Angel, the way that she remains in my heart and with me all the time.  The second big frame to the left is that of my darlings, he is my heart which is why he is on the left.  Below him is Alyssa-Rose (our twins earth sister), my son Rereahu (aged 7) and on the other side of me, on the right is Netana my eldest son (aged 15) and Kotiro Marama my eldest daughter (aged 14)  That is us as a family and us as a whole.  They are the air that I breath and the love in my life.
While it may be wrong to show a Koru pattern as disjointed as my art, I feel it is befitting.  Although my darling is not the father to my 3 eldest, they are in every way still part of life.  The gaps are reflective of the space that we have in our lives, which when you look at it as a whole from a distance, it still flows subtly.  There are some noticeable hiccups in my weaving art work, but that's just me.  Will add the photo's as soon as I can.